Hey guys sorry for disappearing like this. Had a little too much on my plate, physically, mentally and emotionally. College was crazy, dad was over, had to handle too many unexpected series of bad news.
Now I am trying to quit smoking - and it's not easy. Just had two today... So have been pretty much residing [read that as hiding] in my shell. It takes so much effort even to peak out. I'm slightly imbalanced that way. But today I thought I must.
Waiting for some pretty big news which I will get in around ten days so wish me luck and remember me in your prayers.
Nervous as hell about it!
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Tuesday, October 9, 2007
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Friday, August 31, 2007
My Interview with Mike
Hey guys! I was interviewed by Mike Thomas for his blog. It is a great blog because it introduces you to other blogs and bloggers.
Thank you Mike, it was fun!
When I saw his mail I had gone for my brother-in-law's wedding and so I did the interview when I got back. He posted it a couple of days ago, but I didn't get a chance to blog about it
It would be really cool if you guys checked it out. And I think there is a voting thing on it.
I couldn't post about it earlier as my mom-in-law is over for a week and I have been out with her all day.
The interview can be found here.
P.S.: And a note
Also, we suggest that you ask your readers to vote for your blog as
the top three will receive $50, $35, and $15 respectively at the end
of the month.
For more info visit: http://bloginterviewer.com/about
Thanks again,
Mike Thomas
Thank you Mike, it was fun!
When I saw his mail I had gone for my brother-in-law's wedding and so I did the interview when I got back. He posted it a couple of days ago, but I didn't get a chance to blog about it
It would be really cool if you guys checked it out. And I think there is a voting thing on it.
I couldn't post about it earlier as my mom-in-law is over for a week and I have been out with her all day.
The interview can be found here.
P.S.: And a note
Also, we suggest that you ask your readers to vote for your blog as
the top three will receive $50, $35, and $15 respectively at the end
of the month.
For more info visit: http://bloginterviewer.com/about
Thanks again,
Mike Thomas
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Misadventures of 2 Women & 2 Girls
To forewarn you dear reader the title is the most glamorous of the entire post, the more appropriate name for it should have been 'Blame it on the Wino. But I couldn't resist.
I will not start at the beginning but with a digression as I usually do, my new blogmate Sandip introduced me to this site where you can make postcards. So yesterday being an insomniac and not a little crazy, I stayed up all night checking out the site. Browsing my photo gallery for pictures to make an introductory postcard, I thought why not capture a mid-day-going-into-early night madness at my best friend's friends house.
She had her sister & sister-in-law over, during college holidays, so I thought we'd spend time together as they were leaving in a week's time. She picked me up Saturday before last and I took two bottles of wine thinking we'd cook and eat. Her mom and kid had gone to her brother's house so we had the house to ourselves. Well, the evening started innocently enough with her cooking and trying to teach me as well. She's an excellent cook and I, well I, just manage to get by.
We sat in her kitchen, the light was excellent, we thought we'd take some pictures. Not realizing I had not eaten the whole day, actually none of us had, we merrily sipped away at our wine as if there was no tomorrow. Very soon mild inebriation was setting in but we were still composed so to speak. Her younger brother who doesn't drink, came in gave us a disgusted look and left, because by now grown women were screaming and doing obscene things and laughing maniacally.
From the kitchen we went into the bathroom to smoke as there is no smoking in her house. Very soon my hubby [who was working on a Saturday] and hers [who had gone Scuba Diving] came back, mine before his. We insisted we wanted more wine, they desisted but could not say no.
Now drunk, food was forgotten, a lot of merriment ensued, but then her mom came back. Being wise and clever, the girls stayed in the room. I don't know what got into me [I have a problem I always think I have more control than I usually do] I actually had the nerve to go out and make polite conversation, at least try.
What a conversation, this was certainly like no less than the out of body experience that Quasar9 wrote about, when you are watching yourself make a fool of yourself and a voice inside is saying get out, get out now, yet you persist, you sit. I don't know what I was talking about so passionately and incoherently I might add, but I could see through the haze, the slightly pained expression on my husband's face, which signifies that I was just babbling.
Anyway the evening came to an end and I woke up in the morning with a hangover.
I wonder what happened to all that delicious food we cooked. And of course I have not gone to her house in two weeks...how will I face her mom again, I'm beyond mortified. But ahh! what fun was had by all!
If you want to see the postcard more clearly you can check it out the site, this was just a picture I took of it, as the posting to blog feature is not there yet - the postcard pictures
P.S: I FIGURED HOW TO TAKE A SCREEN SHOT ON MY MAC SO NOW IT'S THAT AND NOT THE PHOTOGRAPH OF THE SCREEN
I will not start at the beginning but with a digression as I usually do, my new blogmate Sandip introduced me to this site where you can make postcards. So yesterday being an insomniac and not a little crazy, I stayed up all night checking out the site. Browsing my photo gallery for pictures to make an introductory postcard, I thought why not capture a mid-day-going-into-early night madness at my best friend's friends house.
She had her sister & sister-in-law over, during college holidays, so I thought we'd spend time together as they were leaving in a week's time. She picked me up Saturday before last and I took two bottles of wine thinking we'd cook and eat. Her mom and kid had gone to her brother's house so we had the house to ourselves. Well, the evening started innocently enough with her cooking and trying to teach me as well. She's an excellent cook and I, well I, just manage to get by.
We sat in her kitchen, the light was excellent, we thought we'd take some pictures. Not realizing I had not eaten the whole day, actually none of us had, we merrily sipped away at our wine as if there was no tomorrow. Very soon mild inebriation was setting in but we were still composed so to speak. Her younger brother who doesn't drink, came in gave us a disgusted look and left, because by now grown women were screaming and doing obscene things and laughing maniacally.
From the kitchen we went into the bathroom to smoke as there is no smoking in her house. Very soon my hubby [who was working on a Saturday] and hers [who had gone Scuba Diving] came back, mine before his. We insisted we wanted more wine, they desisted but could not say no.
Now drunk, food was forgotten, a lot of merriment ensued, but then her mom came back. Being wise and clever, the girls stayed in the room. I don't know what got into me [I have a problem I always think I have more control than I usually do] I actually had the nerve to go out and make polite conversation, at least try.
What a conversation, this was certainly like no less than the out of body experience that Quasar9 wrote about, when you are watching yourself make a fool of yourself and a voice inside is saying get out, get out now, yet you persist, you sit. I don't know what I was talking about so passionately and incoherently I might add, but I could see through the haze, the slightly pained expression on my husband's face, which signifies that I was just babbling.
Anyway the evening came to an end and I woke up in the morning with a hangover.
I wonder what happened to all that delicious food we cooked. And of course I have not gone to her house in two weeks...how will I face her mom again, I'm beyond mortified. But ahh! what fun was had by all!
If you want to see the postcard more clearly you can check it out the site, this was just a picture I took of it, as the posting to blog feature is not there yet - the postcard pictures
P.S: I FIGURED HOW TO TAKE A SCREEN SHOT ON MY MAC SO NOW IT'S THAT AND NOT THE PHOTOGRAPH OF THE SCREEN
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Jogging to Beethoven
I discovered something awesome today. I was in the gym upstairs and usually while exercising I have dance music on, to be able to jog intermittently and at the end of the 45 minutes I am dead. Since I am not really regular I always end up a pushing myself too hard and the result afterwards is body in trauma and head spinning. Of course the feeling of accomplishment is there and the endorphins are making their rounds but you come back to your apartment feeling anything but relaxed.
Today I was listening to WGBH's podcast of classical music on my iPod instead. They were playing Beethoven's Violin Sonata No. 9 in A major, commonly known as the Kreutzer Sonata. One of his best-known sonatas written for piano and violin. After which more Beethoven followed. I can’t tell you how amazing the synchronicity between the mind and body that followed was. I was so taken by surprise. Jogging was easier it wasn't the frenetic pushing yourself to do 30 more seconds – it was as if the mind was orchestrating the body in perfect movements and there was a feeling of calm. I was so surprised because although my electronic selection for my exercise routine does give me the energy. It is a very different energy from the one that I felt today. That energy is like the artificial Red Bull effect, today it was organic flowing like good chi throughout my body. I exercised far longer than ever and far more intensely but felt no strain.
The entire day my state of mind had been like a disturbed ECG report with spikes of irritation and crankiness. But at the end of an hour of the treadmill today I felt what a very creased pair of trousers would feel, if it could have feelings, after a bout of thorough professional ironing. I was fascinated, of course it’s not the first time I had heard classical music, but it was the first time I had paired exercising with it. So I researched into sound waves, frequencies and our bodily reactions to it.
Low frequency sound waves make us uncomfortable. The lowest are called infrasound, sounds that emanate from machinery and stuff in the house like ventilation and cooling/heating systems. Low frequency waves can cause symptoms such as nausea, headaches, fatigue, insomnia, vibration of internal organs and a feeling of oppression.
This is what I found on the net in an ezine article by Tania Gabrielle French …
On the other hand, certain high frequency sounds literally energize your mind. Scientists have found that sounds from 5,000 to 8,000 hertz recharge your brain’s batteries.
If your CD collection includes music by Mozart, Baroque Music or even Tibetan Chants, keep listening. In numerous studies, these sounds have been found to charge the cortex of the brain and stimulate health and wellness.
At 120-125 hertz you begin to hear the kick drums and bass guitar common to rock music. These lower frequencies produce the opposite effect - they drain us.
Why is this?
Because they have wave-lengths longer than we are tall, which is why lower frequencies are FELT as well as heard. You can feel this low frequency full-body sensation at dance clubs and rock concerts. Or from listening to most FM radio stations.
Since we are mostly exposed to low frequency sounds in the media, I strongly suggest you balance your brain and body by listening to high frequency classical music at least once a day. It’s easy and effortless – and great for you.
So next time you are exercising forget your usual disco/hip hop/dance/electro/techno collection and pick up Beethoven instead!
Today I was listening to WGBH's podcast of classical music on my iPod instead. They were playing Beethoven's Violin Sonata No. 9 in A major, commonly known as the Kreutzer Sonata. One of his best-known sonatas written for piano and violin. After which more Beethoven followed. I can’t tell you how amazing the synchronicity between the mind and body that followed was. I was so taken by surprise. Jogging was easier it wasn't the frenetic pushing yourself to do 30 more seconds – it was as if the mind was orchestrating the body in perfect movements and there was a feeling of calm. I was so surprised because although my electronic selection for my exercise routine does give me the energy. It is a very different energy from the one that I felt today. That energy is like the artificial Red Bull effect, today it was organic flowing like good chi throughout my body. I exercised far longer than ever and far more intensely but felt no strain.
The entire day my state of mind had been like a disturbed ECG report with spikes of irritation and crankiness. But at the end of an hour of the treadmill today I felt what a very creased pair of trousers would feel, if it could have feelings, after a bout of thorough professional ironing. I was fascinated, of course it’s not the first time I had heard classical music, but it was the first time I had paired exercising with it. So I researched into sound waves, frequencies and our bodily reactions to it.
Low frequency sound waves make us uncomfortable. The lowest are called infrasound, sounds that emanate from machinery and stuff in the house like ventilation and cooling/heating systems. Low frequency waves can cause symptoms such as nausea, headaches, fatigue, insomnia, vibration of internal organs and a feeling of oppression.
This is what I found on the net in an ezine article by Tania Gabrielle French …
On the other hand, certain high frequency sounds literally energize your mind. Scientists have found that sounds from 5,000 to 8,000 hertz recharge your brain’s batteries.
If your CD collection includes music by Mozart, Baroque Music or even Tibetan Chants, keep listening. In numerous studies, these sounds have been found to charge the cortex of the brain and stimulate health and wellness.
At 120-125 hertz you begin to hear the kick drums and bass guitar common to rock music. These lower frequencies produce the opposite effect - they drain us.
Why is this?
Because they have wave-lengths longer than we are tall, which is why lower frequencies are FELT as well as heard. You can feel this low frequency full-body sensation at dance clubs and rock concerts. Or from listening to most FM radio stations.
Since we are mostly exposed to low frequency sounds in the media, I strongly suggest you balance your brain and body by listening to high frequency classical music at least once a day. It’s easy and effortless – and great for you.
So next time you are exercising forget your usual disco/hip hop/dance/electro/techno collection and pick up Beethoven instead!
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Of Tags, Memes and Awards
Let me start with an explanation and an apology - I have two deadly nemeses that follow me quite relentlessly [actually I have loads but these two are the ones who were the culprits in this case]... they are laziness and forgetfulness.
So I have been meaning to do this meme/tag I don't know the right phrase that Jean Chia from A Great Pleasure, tagged me with and it took a lot longer than I had anticipated.
So here goes... with apologies for the delay but the deadline was 26th August and at least I didn't miss that. I don't like to miss deadlines
The meme is about completing at least seventeen out of the following twenty seven sentences. For every completed meme before 26th August, Idham will contribute RM127.00 on your behalf to Darul Izzah Orphanage.
1. A person is only as good as ...
2. Friendship is always ... better if you work at it
3. To love is to ...let go of rationality
4. Money makes me ...
5. I miss ... my cats.
6. My way of saying I care is by ... doing something thoughtful
7. I try to spread love and happiness by ...
8. Pick the flowers when ...ever you want them
9. To love someone is to ... accept them
10. Beauty is ... vital.
11. When I was thirteen, what I remember ...
12. When I was twenty one, I remember ...
13. I am most happy when ... I have no obligations or deadlines
14. Nothing makes me happier than ...
15. If I can change one thing, I will change ...
16. If smiles were banned, ... the world wouldn't have nice looking people
17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could ... fly
18. If you want to ask me to smile while taking my picture ... you just have to point the camera in my direction;)
19. Money is not everything but ... it sure does make life easier
20. The most touching moments I have experienced is ...
21. I smile when ... I want to
22. When I am happy, I ... am great company
23. If only I don't have to ... then ... I'll do anything
24. The best thing I did yesterday was ...
25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title ...
26. One thing I must do before I die is ... live [how utterly corny;)]
27. Doing this meme, I feel like ... I should've done it earlier
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The second meme was not that long ago and I have a valid reason for the delay, I wasn't in town. Mariuca awarded me the opportunity to dream about the things I'd do if I had a million dollars.
Hmm! Very interesting
If I had a $1 million - I'd travel the world over with my friends in style, invest some, give some to people who needed it.
Proposition: If you Have $1,000,000.00…………………………
Requirements: continue above sentences
Tag Mode: 5 blogger
1st - You leave their blog and post link and add to the list below.
2nd - Let the blogger you want to tag know they been tagged by comment in their blog or etc.What They Do With Their $1 Million
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And now a special thanks to Mariuca who has two beautiful blogs and is a really sweet and caring person herself. She gave me a Nice Matters award and it came at the righ t moment when I was pondering over how sometimes in life it's the not-so-nice people who get ahead and how when you're nice people simply take advantage of your goodness. So thanks Marzie I needed to remember that sometimes its nice to be nice just because that's who you are...and some people do appreciate that
According to the originator of the Nice Matters award it is intended for “those that are just nice people, good blog friends, and those that inspire good feelings and inspiration! Those that care about others, that are there to lend support, or those that are just a positive influence in our blogging world!”
So I have been meaning to do this meme/tag I don't know the right phrase that Jean Chia from A Great Pleasure, tagged me with and it took a lot longer than I had anticipated.
So here goes... with apologies for the delay but the deadline was 26th August and at least I didn't miss that. I don't like to miss deadlines
The meme is about completing at least seventeen out of the following twenty seven sentences. For every completed meme before 26th August, Idham will contribute RM127.00 on your behalf to Darul Izzah Orphanage.
1. A person is only as good as ...
2. Friendship is always ... better if you work at it
3. To love is to ...let go of rationality
4. Money makes me ...
5. I miss ... my cats.
6. My way of saying I care is by ... doing something thoughtful
7. I try to spread love and happiness by ...
8. Pick the flowers when ...ever you want them
9. To love someone is to ... accept them
10. Beauty is ... vital.
11. When I was thirteen, what I remember ...
12. When I was twenty one, I remember ...
13. I am most happy when ... I have no obligations or deadlines
14. Nothing makes me happier than ...
15. If I can change one thing, I will change ...
16. If smiles were banned, ... the world wouldn't have nice looking people
17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could ... fly
18. If you want to ask me to smile while taking my picture ... you just have to point the camera in my direction;)
19. Money is not everything but ... it sure does make life easier
20. The most touching moments I have experienced is ...
21. I smile when ... I want to
22. When I am happy, I ... am great company
23. If only I don't have to ... then ... I'll do anything
24. The best thing I did yesterday was ...
25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title ...
26. One thing I must do before I die is ... live [how utterly corny;)]
27. Doing this meme, I feel like ... I should've done it earlier
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The second meme was not that long ago and I have a valid reason for the delay, I wasn't in town. Mariuca awarded me the opportunity to dream about the things I'd do if I had a million dollars.
Hmm! Very interesting
If I had a $1 million - I'd travel the world over with my friends in style, invest some, give some to people who needed it.
*** Start Copy ***
Instructions :Proposition: If you Have $1,000,000.00…………………………
Requirements: continue above sentences
Tag Mode: 5 blogger
1st - You leave their blog and post link and add to the list below.
2nd - Let the blogger you want to tag know they been tagged by comment in their blog or etc.What They Do With Their $1 Million
What They Do With Their $1 Million
16.Nick will waste away his small fortune
17.Santa will give it all to needy children
19.Bobby will be on a World vacation forever
20.Seiche will Fix you but good
21.Barrett will do A LOT of Traveling
22.Jean Chia will open a 'pet's clothing cum cafe' store
23. Random Magus will travel with friends, invest and give to charity
23. Random Magus will travel with friends, invest and give to charity
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And now a special thanks to Mariuca who has two beautiful blogs and is a really sweet and caring person herself. She gave me a Nice Matters award and it came at the righ t moment when I was pondering over how sometimes in life it's the not-so-nice people who get ahead and how when you're nice people simply take advantage of your goodness. So thanks Marzie I needed to remember that sometimes its nice to be nice just because that's who you are...and some people do appreciate thatAccording to the originator of the Nice Matters award it is intended for “those that are just nice people, good blog friends, and those that inspire good feelings and inspiration! Those that care about others, that are there to lend support, or those that are just a positive influence in our blogging world!”
Monday, August 20, 2007
Hey All
I'm back and its sooooo good to be back and I missed you all so much here's hoping you missed me a bit!!!!
Monday, August 6, 2007
Thank You & See You In 10 Days
There are moments when you are totally taken in by surprise but in a good way and this was one of them. I was reading Jean Chia's blog A Great Pleasure and I came across a really sweet post in which she was giving awards to bloggers - the special thing about this award is that it is personalized and one of the most unique ones I've seen. It's actually a smoochie and is personally created by her. So thank you so much for your kind words. I'm really touched {{a big hug and kisses}}
"Amber: I know of your existence through Woman: Gods Masterpiece. It was a great interview. From there, I've got to know that you are no ordinary woman. You are an inspiration to others. I've been wanting to know more about you. Glad that I have the chance now. :)"I'm going to disappear for a week or ten days, will pop in occasionally but probably won't be able to post. Going for brother-in-law's wedding tomorrow morning and will be back in a week!
Will miss you all... muahh!!!
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Judge Not???
These days everyone emphasizes that you should not make judgments or criticize anyone's actions and we are ‘judgmental’ if we find something that, we god forbid, pronounce any judgment on, silent or otherwise. We should mind our own business and judge not lest we be judged.
If I see something and make a judgment about it, does that imply that I think I’m more virtuous than the other person? Or I have less compassion? Or that I don’t understand the complexities of life and that there are no black and whites just shades of grey? Or that I won’t make the same judgment on myself? Or that I think I'm not capable of making that mistake myself?
I’m sorry but I don’t think that’s true…
Leaving out the whole debate of right and wrong being relative there are things that we see which are blatantly wrong because you know those are actions that will lead to consequences that will hurt innocent people unnecessarily. There do exist some actions that are reprehensible from any point of view. On the level of plain decency, on the levels of friendship, on the levels of personal trust.
The word ‘morals’ is actually derived from the Latin word; ‘mores’ meaning customs so can be used for men’s customary ways of judging conduct. If there exist cultures that appreciate innocent people getting hurt and lifelong friendships being betrayed, I don’t know them.
Forget ethics, forget religion, somethings are wrong on the deepest level of humanity. There are some actions that you don't care so much about the 'right', 'wrong', 'morality' or 'immorality' of them, you just shudder at the disrespect of another human being that it causes and you just pray to God that it doesn't happen to you or you don't cause it to others.
So go ahead judge me for being judgmental...
If I see something and make a judgment about it, does that imply that I think I’m more virtuous than the other person? Or I have less compassion? Or that I don’t understand the complexities of life and that there are no black and whites just shades of grey? Or that I won’t make the same judgment on myself? Or that I think I'm not capable of making that mistake myself?
I’m sorry but I don’t think that’s true…
Leaving out the whole debate of right and wrong being relative there are things that we see which are blatantly wrong because you know those are actions that will lead to consequences that will hurt innocent people unnecessarily. There do exist some actions that are reprehensible from any point of view. On the level of plain decency, on the levels of friendship, on the levels of personal trust.
The word ‘morals’ is actually derived from the Latin word; ‘mores’ meaning customs so can be used for men’s customary ways of judging conduct. If there exist cultures that appreciate innocent people getting hurt and lifelong friendships being betrayed, I don’t know them.
Forget ethics, forget religion, somethings are wrong on the deepest level of humanity. There are some actions that you don't care so much about the 'right', 'wrong', 'morality' or 'immorality' of them, you just shudder at the disrespect of another human being that it causes and you just pray to God that it doesn't happen to you or you don't cause it to others.
So go ahead judge me for being judgmental...
Saturday, July 7, 2007
An Observation - take it at face value!!!
So much of our life's lived on the net not only with friends we haven't met but also with our other friends... with a phenomenon called Facebook.
I've met my really old friends who I hadn't seen for ages, my work friends from way back when... best friends who live in various cities, friends of friends I might have partied with, random people met once or twice in life...
What's scary is that sometimes people seem more fun from behind a screen, they are easier to deal with, a fewer conflicts arise, we have the capability to use the delete button [unfortunately the 'edit' facility is sometimes lost when we are face to face ;)].
Although people find ways to create conflict and fight on Facebook as well it's far more subtle and long drawn.... and sometimes enjoyable to watch a fascinating treat for the voyeur lurking in all of us.
Very soon I feel all life will be lived sitting in front of a computer.
I've met my really old friends who I hadn't seen for ages, my work friends from way back when... best friends who live in various cities, friends of friends I might have partied with, random people met once or twice in life...
What's scary is that sometimes people seem more fun from behind a screen, they are easier to deal with, a fewer conflicts arise, we have the capability to use the delete button [unfortunately the 'edit' facility is sometimes lost when we are face to face ;)].
Although people find ways to create conflict and fight on Facebook as well it's far more subtle and long drawn.... and sometimes enjoyable to watch a fascinating treat for the voyeur lurking in all of us.
Very soon I feel all life will be lived sitting in front of a computer.
Friday, June 29, 2007
My Sabbatical
...have exams going on.....and some other stuff I need to deal with .... so will take your leave for a couple of days.
In this sea of people with such beautiful voices... wonder if you will even realize or miss me when I'm gone..... although I so wish you would.......
In this sea of people with such beautiful voices... wonder if you will even realize or miss me when I'm gone..... although I so wish you would.......
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Words of Wisdom
Do you want to write? If you do, then establish oneness with the meaning of meanings. Do not get entangled with words alone. Word is only the medium. What you want to convey is its meaning. The smallest speck of meaning has the capacity to condense a sea of words. It is the power of meaning that has created words. Remember this truth and your writing will automatically become meaningful
- Acharya Mahaprajna
But what am I to do... its so easy for me to get seduced by the heady arrangements of words and the music they make. Whether they are meaningful or not, sincere or not, true or not as long as they are musical....
... the written word, my most exquisite weakness....
- Acharya Mahaprajna
But what am I to do... its so easy for me to get seduced by the heady arrangements of words and the music they make. Whether they are meaningful or not, sincere or not, true or not as long as they are musical....
... the written word, my most exquisite weakness....
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Girl's Night Out
Just got home from a girls night out to this really cool place - [I'm taking steps to be more socially ho
w shall I put it? yes more socially 'accomplished']Some of the people I met tonight were totally new and random.... and s
ome who I am very good friends with
! So two divergent sets...So it was really a test of how much I had learnt as the result of the previous post and your comments.
So to begin with I had a small talk with myself wherein I told myself I was going to be confident and no one was going intimidate me...
And lo and behold I had such a rocking time.
Before I went out, I read and re-read all your com
ments and suggestions - and thought I'd conduct an experiment on myself...and report to you all the success or failure of this experiment.Felt a bit weird to be the subject of your own experiment... but cool
But I rocked tonight... it was bloody amazing and exhilarating. Girl's night out is so much fun!!!!!!!
... another realization I got was that it would be so cool if we could be in the state of mind that we are in when we are slightly inebriated...normally as well... without being drunk..
We'd be so m
uch easier with ourselves and we wouldn't be second guessing everything and examining all of our actions with a bloody magnifying glass of introspect.Just be...people... just be...
I think I think tooooo much!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
My Interview with Bobby...
When Bobby asked me to give an interview for his wonderful blog with a one-of-its-kind concept - Woman: God's Masterpieces, a blog which has as its central theme, 'incredible woman and why we adore them- with poetry, support, pictures, prose, and praise by Robert Revell and John Justice (with guest editorials too) I was unbelievably flattered and nervous at the same time... since before me he had interviewed two very talented bloggers, Maruica and Adria of In Cinq.
The interview is up on his site now and it was such a thrilling experience... it mattered more than any other interview I had given before because this one is for you all, who know me without ever having met me... which makes it so much more meaningful.
So I hope you check it out and enjoy the interview....
I want to thank Bobby again for his amazingly kind words that made me feel so special.... and I look forward to reading his next interview through which I'll get to know one of you better...
P.S.: It's spectacular to have a place dedicated to women!!!
The interview is up on his site now and it was such a thrilling experience... it mattered more than any other interview I had given before because this one is for you all, who know me without ever having met me... which makes it so much more meaningful.
So I hope you check it out and enjoy the interview....
I want to thank Bobby again for his amazingly kind words that made me feel so special.... and I look forward to reading his next interview through which I'll get to know one of you better...
P.S.: It's spectacular to have a place dedicated to women!!!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
A random digression
My mind drifts as I look around the class - the teacher truly uninspiring, I spiral into a mindless boredom - an insane numbing of the mind.
I drift...
...so many faces... so many disguises.
I wonder what they are thinking? what secrets they hide... what joys they await... what pains they endure...
Do we ever really get to know the person next to us? or are they like me?
Forever guarded!
A reality created with great care - never too revealing, never too open... always wanting to appear perfect... not always achieving that.
It would be good to break free and not need anyone's approval
So why do some of us need constant validation? When we know what we are worth why don't we believe?
We all start with the same slate... then why do some people never seem to need anyone's approval, so sure of themselves - not needing anyone.
Is it nature or nurture?
Are we products of where we are born and to whom we are born?
Does life happen to us or do we happen to life?
How do we break free...how do we unlearn?
Can we create a new identity or are the chains of our DNA too strong?
I drift...
...so many faces... so many disguises.
I wonder what they are thinking? what secrets they hide... what joys they await... what pains they endure...
Do we ever really get to know the person next to us? or are they like me?
Forever guarded!
A reality created with great care - never too revealing, never too open... always wanting to appear perfect... not always achieving that.
It would be good to break free and not need anyone's approval
So why do some of us need constant validation? When we know what we are worth why don't we believe?
We all start with the same slate... then why do some people never seem to need anyone's approval, so sure of themselves - not needing anyone.
Is it nature or nurture?
Are we products of where we are born and to whom we are born?
Does life happen to us or do we happen to life?
How do we break free...how do we unlearn?
Can we create a new identity or are the chains of our DNA too strong?
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Pain Sucks...
I know this is no amazing philosophical revelation or new discovery but it's a truth that just is very relevant to me on a personal level these days. Not only is is it painful to see the person you love in an inordinate amount of pain what is more painful and hateful is to see is how that constant physical pain changes [hopefully temporarily] parts of your personality. And I have seen this in my dad... he's become so angry and so hurtful to everyone around... I tell myself it's the intense pain but it still doesn't make it easy to see the aggression...
So what does one do? Stay quiet and hope thats its the pain talking or retaliate?
I think a loss of control is what leads to rage when you find yourself unable to do the simplest things and need assistance... rage builds up. Although one understands all the reasons but when faced with an onslaught of angry words its easy to forget.
Pain is such a leveller as much as death...rich or poor, brilliant or dumb, beautiful or ugly... you can't help but change in response to pain
unless of course you can't feel it... as is the case with CIPA patients... but I'm sure lack of pain would be as debilitating as chronic pain itself....
So what does one do? Stay quiet and hope thats its the pain talking or retaliate?
I think a loss of control is what leads to rage when you find yourself unable to do the simplest things and need assistance... rage builds up. Although one understands all the reasons but when faced with an onslaught of angry words its easy to forget.
Pain is such a leveller as much as death...rich or poor, brilliant or dumb, beautiful or ugly... you can't help but change in response to pain
unless of course you can't feel it... as is the case with CIPA patients... but I'm sure lack of pain would be as debilitating as chronic pain itself....
Friday, June 8, 2007
I'm Back.....
Hi... everyone. I cannot express how touched I am by all of your prayers and concern. Feel very honoured and loved!
My dad is okay now... but the amount of pain he is in is insane.
It's been a very humbling experience - a real eye-opener.
Will write more once I get back... which is in a couple of days!!!!
Thanks again for caring
My dad is okay now... but the amount of pain he is in is insane.
It's been a very humbling experience - a real eye-opener.
Will write more once I get back... which is in a couple of days!!!!
Thanks again for caring
Saturday, May 26, 2007
A little Prayer
Hi all... will be be away for a couple of days...Dad's bypass is on the 29th... so going home. He'll be admitted on the 28th - which is his birthday and that really sucks...
Please pray everything goes okay. My dad's someone I have never seen weak.. so this is beyond difficult for me...
At home everyone sees me as the strong one maybe even a little 'cold' but when it comes to dad all defenses are down... and it's terrible...
I have a huge family with lots of aunts and uncles. They all like to bond in times such as this... which is of course really good... but I'm not used to people as I always was a little antisocial, hung out with a select group of friends... so I'm clueless when it comes to interacting with huge groups of relative in times of personal pain... they expect you to share what you are going through with them...and I don't like others to see my tears.....its probably the only time when being with other people is as if not more difficult than being alone
Anyway all that's secondary...as this is not about me... its about dad!!
So please say a little prayer...
Please pray everything goes okay. My dad's someone I have never seen weak.. so this is beyond difficult for me...
At home everyone sees me as the strong one maybe even a little 'cold' but when it comes to dad all defenses are down... and it's terrible...
I have a huge family with lots of aunts and uncles. They all like to bond in times such as this... which is of course really good... but I'm not used to people as I always was a little antisocial, hung out with a select group of friends... so I'm clueless when it comes to interacting with huge groups of relative in times of personal pain... they expect you to share what you are going through with them...and I don't like others to see my tears.....its probably the only time when being with other people is as if not more difficult than being alone
Anyway all that's secondary...as this is not about me... its about dad!!
So please say a little prayer...
Friday, May 25, 2007
Just a little note...
... sounds sentimental and all... but I'm so glad to have met all of you... the amazing people I've met through blogging... so different from each other yet all so unique... you make my day special, and I learn something new and get re-acquainted with something old...every day
I have a serious problem connecting with people in 'real' life... lots of barriers that I just can't seem to cross to arrive at a natural comfortable point... all of it so forced and artificial.
But here, in this very special universe... making contact with everyone... I'm so much more in my element... away from all physical distractions... a little vulnerable, a little armored...
Enjoying these beautiful random encounters with so many facets of myself and of you....
I have a serious problem connecting with people in 'real' life... lots of barriers that I just can't seem to cross to arrive at a natural comfortable point... all of it so forced and artificial.
But here, in this very special universe... making contact with everyone... I'm so much more in my element... away from all physical distractions... a little vulnerable, a little armored...
Enjoying these beautiful random encounters with so many facets of myself and of you....
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Happy Moments: Thursday Thirteen...attempt # 3
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[at least the ones I have pictures of] 1. Hubby's Birthday [May 15, 2007]  2. This was a seriously amazing cake & looked beautiful too.. with fruits sprinkled with golden dust  3. Sweets for my sweet  4. My 3 loves  5. Aby & I at his mom's house on our last visit  6. The ultimate thrill of all times...  7. My best friend [at some birthday]  8. Aby & I chillin' [thats the Burj-Al-Arab in the background]  9. At Cirque Du Soliel - they performed in Dubai recently.  10. Posin' away with my uber cool mom-in-law [that was a happy happy day]  11. At a rocking party  12. At 360 [a cool bar on top of a hotels roof]  13. Mall of Emirates [they keep having random stuff - its fun to watch]  Links to other Thursday Thirteens! 1. (leave your link in comments, I’ll add you here!) |
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